You, you know?
Sunday, October 9, 2011 @ 8:02 PM
Defeated. The only word I can describe about what am currently feeling. It's not that I wish I could but I am emotionally drained. I have no words to say, or defend my stand not because Im in the wrong but because I give up continuing this irrational argument.I see you as the perfect boyfriend. Everything I wished I had.
1)Looks
2)Brains
3)Personality
What else? You have a sense of humour, you love kids, you love me so much. What else could I ask for? I define you as the perfect boyf. Here I have the perfect boyfriend but I cannot act like as if I was meant and perfect for him. Sucks you know? Even if you are perfect I have to agree you have your own flaws. Flaws that I can't deny you having it too.
I wished you understand more. The fact that you're 20 years of age I expect more experience and you see things at different angle. Im not asking you for much but I wish you think things at a rationale kind of way.
I'm trying to keep to my words but it seems stupid if you're accusing me of flirting when Im not. It's stupid how you try to say that Im not allowed to talk to a particular someone. If the line is clear, why dont trust. DO YOU HAVE A BIG PROBLEM in trusting? Sucks. I hate this feeling. You've been giving me the impression that I myslef is a failure. Isit because you think that im still a teen? Is that it? But then again, ever heard of people sayings 'boys mature 3 years late' so I bet by right you're suppose to be 17 in 'logical mind'.
But then again speaking of sense it doesnt matter. When two people come in a relationship they have to trust. Its the KEY, to move further on. I know I admit there were cases of guilt I had. but if i were to hide, i wouldnt even give you the liberty to enter my facebook. or any of that kind of thing. I hope you understand the reason why Im actually writing this. Im just telling you, what I feel and if any case of guilt I would have told you and it'll be written on my face.
Since Im not doing anything wrong, I defend myself to a point where I do think Im right.
I love you, Terence Lim Jun Ting. Why don't you see that?
Lots of love <3<3<3<3,
Aida,
I love you like a love song, I love you deeper than that actually.
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